Sunday, September 11, 2011

The CT Scan

Today, I spent much of the day in the OB Triage here at the hospital.  I have been experiencing some dizziness, headaches, blurred vision, nausea, and a strange taste in my mouth.  Because some of these symptoms seemed neurological, the doctors ordered a CT scan for me.

What followed was much waiting.  Waiting for doctors.  Waiting for my scan.  Waiting for results.

In the meantime, I was afraid.  Afraid of the imaging machine.  Afraid of the results.  Afraid of what could happen to my little boys if the results weren't good.

I struggled today.  I struggled with trusting God's plan.  I struggled with worry about the future.

Since Jude was born, people have told us that we are strong.  As the days go by, we're realizing ever more just how little strength we have.  We're not strong.  God is strong.  Our faith is small, but it's in an incredible God.  And, He is...over and over again...proving Himself so very worthy of our trust.

We received the initial results tonight, and they appear just fine.  We're really grateful for that.  But, even if they had not been good, God is still good.  He is still God, and we can still trust Him.  I am learning more and more just how trustworthy He is.  Please continue to pray that we will trust Him.

And in other news, Jude has not had a CSF leak since yesterday morning.  Praise God.  Please continue to pray for his incision to heal up permanently.

Thank you, friends.
We love you.


Natalie said...

Praying for you all. ((hugs))

Abigail said...

Glad your results are OK. Lots of continued prayers.

Liz and Phil said...

Mandy so glad you got checked out! Praying for clear scans and no more leaking for the incision for Jude. Praying for rest, peace, and continued strength for you both that only comes from the Father...." for when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10 "I lift my eyes to the mountains - where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." Psalm 121: 1-2
Love you!!!!

julie wolfe said...

Praying for your health Mandy. Read Psalms 121 it will lift you all up. Get sweet sleep and give Jude a hug and a kiss for me.

Andrea Bullok said...

Glad you scan turned out OK and Jude has not leaked today! Praise God! So thankful for the way your story is ministering to me and others daily as we read of His faithfulness to Jude and your family. Such an encouragement in our own struggles to trust God with all the details of our lives! Praying for you all!

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