When you're single and dating someone, people often ask,
"When are you getting married?"
When you're married without kids, people often ask,
"When are you guys thinking of having kids?"
When you are married with kids, people often ask,
"When are you guys thinking of having more?"
Although these questions have been known to be annoying, I often find myself asking them in conversation. I, personally, have never minded responding to them either, but answering that last one has been getting a little harder lately.
As many around here already know, Brandon and I have been wanting to get pregnant again for over a year now...since last August. Because my pregnancy with Caleb was unexpected, I think I expected to have a baby nine months from when the date we decided we wanted another one. I never dreamt it would take the fifteen or so months we have been waiting for a positive pregnancy test. God has had other plans, it seems.
Some days are honestly hard, but thankfully most are not. Overall, the Lord has shown His goodness to us in so many ways. I have grown more and more grateful for what He has given me...especially in our son...and I am cherishing each stage of his development. I have been able to better understand the struggles with infertility of some of my very best friends. And, most importantly, He has reminded me again and again that it is He who is directing my life, and the plans I so carefully lay out aren't always His. I am just grateful that His plans are so much better than mine...and so glad that one day I will get to see just how true that is.
So, I guess I am writing this to let you in on our struggle and ask for prayer. Please pray that we will trust Him and get to know Him better through this process of waiting. Please pray that we would walk well with Him through this...and that we would follow as He guides. We have thought and talked about adoption for a while now, as there is such great need out there for homes for so many kids. We had planned on having a few of our own before possibly adopting, but God might have other plans for us. Please pray for guidance with that as well. THANK YOU so much.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6