60/365

These two left tonight
for a last minute trip to visit Brandon's parents in Ft. Myers.
I stayed behind.

I wasn't ready to travel again

and had lots of things I could get done while they were gone.

Caleb surprised us by crying hard as they were getting into the car. It was heart breaking.

I second guessed my decision, as usual, but I am hoping it will end up being good for us all.

I miss them already.

59/365

It is late, and I am still up.

Not a good decision on my part.

My heart is heavy for someone I love very much.

Please pray God would bring much good from a very sad situation...as only He can.

Thank you.

58/365

Yesterday, I filled the last two empty frames on our living room wall. 

It was a good accomplishment...

even if we are moving out in less than four months.

I love the faces in these photos.

57/365

I haven't been feeling as motivated for this project lately.

Often, it is late before I get around to taking a photo.

Tonight,

before we went on a family date, I saw the light on Caleb's profile.  So, while Brandon distracted him  by teaching him to rotate his arms in opposite directions,

I snapped this.

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A messy smoothie mustache

on a boy who was shirtless because he soaked his "Buddy Walk" shirt

jumping into the sprinkler.

I especially like the mark on the forehead from the top of the glass.

55/365

I didn't get my camera out much.

So, I missed some shots of lots of laughing, really good food, us watching Pride and Prejudice, and even my time later with another good friend, Laura.  I didn't get a single framable "friend" picture.

But, I did get lots of relaxed, fun time with my friends...and a sunset shot through a dirty window.

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Laura, Emily and Jen.

I lived and served with them in Mexico,

and our time together there made us friends for life.

We try to spend a weekend together each year.

This year, we stayed with Em in Chicago...ate Mexican food three times...

did a little shopping downtown...and caught up on each other's lives.

It was a sweet time,

and I am so grateful for these women.

53/365

While Emily worked, I attempted to wander the streets of Chicago.

Instead, I decided I was freezing and ended up in an Einstein's Bagel and journaled.

Apart from the biting cold, I do love this city.

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The Gulf of Mexico as seen from the air.

On my way to Chicago for our annual girls' weekend.

Thankful for the beauty of the ocean...

for friends who are committed to our friendship...

and for a husband who encourages me to do this.

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I hope this is the only time I take a photo of a toilet this year.

Earlier in the evening, Caleb was in the bathroom.

He was supposed to be washing his hands.

Instead, he was playing with almost all an entire bottle of hand soap.

The mountain of soap he had made was taller than him.

And, when I discovered the mess he was making,

I was very annoyed.

I yelled and accused him of being "too old for that."

Later...long after the little boy had gone to sleep...

I found this in the bathroom.

The remnants of Caleb's soap bubbles Brandon had discarded in the toilet.

Somehow, the mess that had so annoyed me earlier,

I suddenly found sweet now that he was asleep.

The bubbles became precious, 

and I learned a little lesson.

I want to encourage Caleb to find joy in little things...

and not freak out when he does it in childish ways.

He is, after all, a child.

And so tonight, when he asked if he could sleep on the floor,

I said yes.

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Have you ever seen a cuter smile?

We get to see it all the time.

:-)

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This is now my third photo of these little guys.

They are getting so big...and brave.

Their mommy has been teaching them all sorts of things.

It is so fun to watch.

48/365

Today was a lazy Sunday.

We went to a meeting for new people at our church today...

after listening to a very timely message on suffering well.

Later, after helping Caleb

work out conflict with friends,

I somehow ended up taking a nap with Millie in Caleb's bed while he played outside

and Brandon started a puzzle.

We also watched

Brave together as a family

and played a game of Settlers.

And, now because I took a nap,
I am still awake.

Today was a lovely Sunday.

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I didn't want a smartphone.

I told my friends how having internet access on me at all times wouldn't be a good thing.

Then the monthly costs got lower.

They were the same as what I was paying for a basic phone...

after beginning a plan with friends back home.

(Brandon had jumped in on an open spot with his siblings about a year ago).

So, now I am connected to the internet whenever I want to be.

In many ways, it has been really helpful.

I am much easier to get a hold of,

and I am better at keeping up with my email.

I also love love love several apps...

which I will share about someday.

In other ways, it has been detrimental.

I get distracted when I go to check the time
and end up reading the news.

Or, I go to send a text message
and end up on Facebook.

Because I use my phone as an alarm clock,
I often end up googling something

I think of while lying in bed at night.

Often, I don't remember what I got my phone out for in the first place.

I need to make some changes.

Hopefully, posting this confession helps push me along in that direction.

46/365

Jude would have turned eighteen months today.

There are so many things I am missing about him tonight.

I miss the way he smelled

and his sweet little tape-covered cheek when I kissed it. 

I miss the way his fingers squeezed mine

and his beautiful, beautiful eyes.

I miss how he loved his back rubbed

and the angry face he made when the nurses did something he didn't like.

I miss how he fell asleep so peacefully when we were holding him.

I can still feel the weight of my baby in my arms.

I so look forward to the day when I get to hold him again.

Every good and perfect gift is from above,

coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights,

who does not change like shifting shadows.

James 1:17

45/365

We had life group tonight,

and the men made the women dinner.

We felt loved.

Caleb, meanwhile, had a Valentine's Day party with all the kids.

I took a photo of the valentine he made.

On the red heart, he drew a picture of Jude in his hospital bed...

and "love hearts," as he calls them.

As he described his valentine to me, he said,

"But, Mommy, it has a secret.

You see, if you turn the heart, there is something behind it.

It is Jude...alive and happy in Heaven."

Happy Valentine's Day!

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The grass withers, the flower fades,

but the word of our God will stand forever.

Isaiah 40:8

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My sweet husband surprised me for a Valentine's Day date at a really yummy restaurant.

I so enjoy spending time with him.

I am thankful tonight for all the people who helped make this date happen.

We love you!

42/365

These sweet little things are growing up fast.

Today, they took a nap in a big pile.

They all climbed on top of each other as I sat eight feet away.

It was precious to behold.

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I started a little quilt tonight.

I made one for my sweet niece for Christmas,

and I am now attempting a second for a precious neighbor baby.

Her name is Miral, and her family is from Saudi Arabia.

She has a severe heart defect and a serious brain bleed,
and is recovering from both.

Please pray for her and her family.