The CT Scan

Today, I spent much of the day in the OB Triage here at the hospital.  I have been experiencing some dizziness, headaches, blurred vision, nausea, and a strange taste in my mouth.  Because some of these symptoms seemed neurological, the doctors ordered a CT scan for me.

What followed was much waiting.  Waiting for doctors.  Waiting for my scan.  Waiting for results.

In the meantime, I was afraid.  Afraid of the imaging machine.  Afraid of the results.  Afraid of what could happen to my little boys if the results weren't good.

I struggled today.  I struggled with trusting God's plan.  I struggled with worry about the future.

Since Jude was born, people have told us that we are strong.  As the days go by, we're realizing ever more just how little strength we have.  We're not strong.  God is strong.  Our faith is small, but it's in an incredible God.  And, He is...over and over again...proving Himself so very worthy of our trust.

We received the initial results tonight, and they appear just fine.  We're really grateful for that.  But, even if they had not been good, God is still good.  He is still God, and we can still trust Him.  I am learning more and more just how trustworthy He is.  Please continue to pray that we will trust Him.

And in other news, Jude has not had a CSF leak since yesterday morning.  Praise God.  Please continue to pray for his incision to heal up permanently.

Thank you, friends.
We love you.
Goodnight.